Today is one of those days that you would rather not being alive.
One of those days that makes you think you're not good enough, and you never were.
Today... I'm starting to lose my feelings again.
They were so deep, so strong, I could feel them in every touch, in every kiss, everywhere. They were just... There. And now they are gone.
My hope is gone too, hope that one day I'll find you and realize that everything I've been suffering was meant to happen because we would someday be together. Now I see, that is not going to happen.
Not because we don't want to, we do. It's because we can't. We just can't be together. We can share our thoughts, our dreams, we can share meals and a cup of coffee, maybe books and some feelings, but we are not sharing a life. It doesn't feel like it, at least not yet. Does it?
We see things so differently, and it is so damn sad that you cannot understand the way I feel.
You say there's no way anyone can be able to express their feelings into words correctly, and that's true. I'm not able to express the pain I'm in while writting this. I promess you, there's no way you can ever understand how much I do love you and how difficult it will be for me to forget everything, but I'll do it someday if that means I'll set you free. You need to use your wings, to explore the world around you, to feel and not to feel.
I'm not sure you're human, because I don't think someone so deep and so beautiful in every single way is able to be born in a world like this. I just don't get it, it doesn't make any sense.
What I do know is that I'm so proud to be around to see you when you stare at the sky, when you think about everything and nothing at all, when your mind goes blank and when you're full of ideas, when your eyes look at me like I'm the strangest thing they have ever seen and when they look at the world like they have seen all of it. You Are Wonderful. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise, not even yourself.
I know I won't be around much longer, I don't know how to explain it but I feel it, so I wanted to say that if these are some of my last few words written down, and someday we have to be apart, I will never regret the time I spent with you. Being by your side is challenging, but also amazing.
I love you more than you will ever understand.
One of those days that makes you think you're not good enough, and you never were.
Today... I'm starting to lose my feelings again.
They were so deep, so strong, I could feel them in every touch, in every kiss, everywhere. They were just... There. And now they are gone.
My hope is gone too, hope that one day I'll find you and realize that everything I've been suffering was meant to happen because we would someday be together. Now I see, that is not going to happen.
Not because we don't want to, we do. It's because we can't. We just can't be together. We can share our thoughts, our dreams, we can share meals and a cup of coffee, maybe books and some feelings, but we are not sharing a life. It doesn't feel like it, at least not yet. Does it?
We see things so differently, and it is so damn sad that you cannot understand the way I feel.
You say there's no way anyone can be able to express their feelings into words correctly, and that's true. I'm not able to express the pain I'm in while writting this. I promess you, there's no way you can ever understand how much I do love you and how difficult it will be for me to forget everything, but I'll do it someday if that means I'll set you free. You need to use your wings, to explore the world around you, to feel and not to feel.
I'm not sure you're human, because I don't think someone so deep and so beautiful in every single way is able to be born in a world like this. I just don't get it, it doesn't make any sense.
What I do know is that I'm so proud to be around to see you when you stare at the sky, when you think about everything and nothing at all, when your mind goes blank and when you're full of ideas, when your eyes look at me like I'm the strangest thing they have ever seen and when they look at the world like they have seen all of it. You Are Wonderful. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise, not even yourself.
I know I won't be around much longer, I don't know how to explain it but I feel it, so I wanted to say that if these are some of my last few words written down, and someday we have to be apart, I will never regret the time I spent with you. Being by your side is challenging, but also amazing.
I love you more than you will ever understand.
